The hardest part of loving you
Is knowing I don’t know how
I say this with the bottom of my heart
I try but don’t think I ever get close
Enough
I feel at a distance
Even when we are both close to
One another
I feel like I’m still miles away from you
When we are embraced in a hug
It’s like my brain wants to control
My heart
How can I love you when we are far apart?
I try to trust you
But something seems to make me
Question everything you’ve ever done
It’s like I know deep down you are the one
But I’m afraid my trauma
Want to take you from me
You think your fighting me
And I think I’m fighting you
But look deep enough it’s those
That hurt us trying to keep us apart
Listen to the things I’ve spewed
There is no way I would want to say
Those things I say to hurt you
Maybe we fail to see
The hurt we are already in
I wanna take this time to say I know you care
But doesn’t stop you from sometimes
Digging the knife further in
And this time we’ve said some
Pretty bad things
Ugly words that were sharp around the edges
They cut new wounds that now
We both need to heal
Maybe if we took the time apart
We could see the damage
We both caused
I need space you need space
Take a break
Maybe we will come back in peace
Find out that what we said we didn’t mean
Grab each other and kiss away
Heal the cuts we both display
And cry in each other’s arms for we want to
Always stay
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