Suffocating

Why can’t I breathe?

It’s like the air around me

Is trying to leave

Why must I try?

When really

We’re all living to die

Why is it easier to just be alone?

No one to make you feel

Bad about wanting to be on your own

Why must I cry

Like 50 million times?

Is there really a reason why?

Or do I simply want to suffer

Because I know the answer

But not willing to follow through

Is it really me that needs to leave?

Or was it really you?

Either way if we’ve come this far

What should we really do?

Cuz I can feel my heart beating fast

Like it put on its running shoes

That’s why it’s hard to breathe

Whenever I get around you

Tell me how much do you really love me?

How much do I love you?

Because if this is what love is

How about we start telling the truth

It’s not fairytale lullabies

It’s trying so hard not to say goodbye

At the wrong times

It’s trying but know you’re winning

A losing fight

When you start to lose interest

And start searching for something

More right

How we came from the love our parents

Still share today

I’ll never know

Because the devil is working hard

To keep us single

I think by now I would know

But still something about it seems

Tempting for sure

Like knowing I wouldn’t have to hurt

Anymore

Then maybe just maybe I could be free

Maybe just maybe I would finally

Breathe