LOSING…..?

I’m screaming inside myself,
What you smiling for?

Burning, Bleeding, and dying,
Right outside my chest

Can no one see these
Knives sticking out of me?

Where did I go?

Where am I?

I’m hiding from myself,
The voices leading me,
Further away,
I can’t move,
I don’t want to move

Why can’t someone save me,
Save me from this pain

Lord, make it go away

Am I suppose to feel sad,
Because I only feel this way when
I’m in love
And when I lose that love
I become so numb

Oh god help me,
I’m tired of this game
And I’m not sure if
I’m losing or winning
This time!