I Almost

I almost called you

Forgetting that it’s not my turn

That I gotta love myself more

Because you refuse to reach out to me

So why would I reach out to you

Some may find that childish

But if they only knew

How hard it is dealing with you

I almost forgot that you lied

When I uncovered your secrets

You simply tried to push them aside

You were caught red handed

And you never had the decency

To even apologize

I almost fell for you again

But that was just the drugs

The loneliness crying out

I admit that I was a little drunk

So I should’ve known better

You just a whole mistake

One that I don’t plan on making again

I almost said I’m sorry

But really it’s not my fault

You can kiss my ass

I’m not going to apologize

When I know you not worthy

Of me falling to my knees

I almost said I love you

That would’ve been a mistake

Because the love I have for me

Would have been misplaced

You aren’t the one I love anymore

You went away

So the love I had for you

I returned it to me

Now I know what I almost lost

I almost lost myself