ONE LOVE

Ain’t no need to fear me
When I love you
I told you
But just like the single Mother
I’m also the father
Giving my kids beatings
To teach them lessons
It hurts me sometimes
To take away your blessings
But you understand when
You understand
I need you all to be your bestest
This next life
Is shining in a new light
We are here to bring
In new life
I’m slow to the punch but that’s cuz I’m
New new
I’m just loving all the demons
And treating them as if they were
Once the spirits that didn’t know
That one day they would meet
Such a soul
That carried both the good and the bad
But she knew more than that
Because she controlled the entirety
She got this world where it was
Meant to be
Waiting for a savior
And guess what
That savior is me!

For My Guest….

Welcome guest to my space
You may sit and have a taste
I enjoy you, you enjoy me
As energy flows naturally

Out comes the laughs
Here comes the cries
We still got our space
No time for goodbyes

Find that balance once again
My friend,
We share this space, together
Always respecting one another

Moments come and they pass
We reflect on moments
So they might forever last

Slowly but surely the space grows crowded
It once was a balance now it’s not
I’m sorry to say, you’ve overstayed,
Your stay,
Please see the exit right away

Door wide open, you walk on through
I slowly close the door behind you

Now this time is quiet it’s peaceful
But lonesome,
So I just wait and wait
Till the day
I hear the knock, the one I’ve been waiting
On a lot
But it’ll be my choice, it always will be

To open that door and let in your energy
Have you try, to enjoy this space
Give you another taste
Hoping this time we remain in balance
And never ends
So I can keep the door open
And throw these keys to the wind!!

Dear Mother!

God is just a provider right
Well, look around
Everything we got came from the ground!

You stop to think about it
All you’ll say is wow!

Been abusing the only mother
Who Birthed us
But she don’t settle down

Feel her right? She’s moving around
Trying hard to provide the next things
For her child

Somehow she put me here to see her
Explain her story

Wipe your eyes
Open them up
And surprise

Better late than never
To change your lives
Before you take
How about you think twice

Give
Love
Live

Life is such a precious gift

Thank you momma

Living Free

Dear ex
You did your best
Putting me thru all that stress
Hands on my neck
Squeezing till I’m out of breath

Still remember when you told me to slit my wrists
Those sweet words almost made me not resist

I really love how the whole time you made me feel guilty for lying
All that time I spent crying and repenting my sins
You never even admitted you were just as guilty
I found out only when she text my phone to let me know you and her had sex right before you got on that plane to come see me

I thought I could make it better, give you a home and child
That was wild

I got pregnant and then I knew i was gonna be stuck with you.
I’m so glad you stressed me to the point I miscarried
Cuz who knows what would’ve happened
Like we might’ve ended up married

Doubt it, cuz you didn’t love me
You loved the control of me
Your puppet you could release but knew you could always come back to pull on the strings
And use me to purchase all of your things.

And as I began to see
what was in front of me
I lost my mind
Just in time

I knew you had to go but in my heart I’d never be the same
What a shame, you broke this beauty
And you went on with some regret
Trust I’d never let you forget

The problem tho is I thought I forgave
But I didn’t so
Now I’m here
Crying again for the 3rd time
Finding that I only loved that 1st time

I want so bad to be free
So I can be
Somewhere where my heart can beat

So I’ll say this now
With a smile
I loved you once
I love you now
But I forgive you
Cuz you were a child

You’ll become a man one day, I know
And I’m sure that you’ll think of me
But I have to let you go
So I can be free to love who I need

I forgive you for the abuse you put me through
And I understand that there was something wrong with you not me
And that I gotta learn to let this be

I am strong despite, how you made me feel weak,
I am brave despite, how you made me feel afraid
I am confident despite, how you made me feel insecure
I am worthy of love despite, how you didn’t love me before

I am worrying less, carefree
Less stressed

I’m Living free

Game of Thrones

Life lately has been real robotic
This isn’t what I had in mind
When I decided I needed to make up mine
But as long as I do it with all of my passion
I still feel satisfied inside

You probably thinking of me right now
And I’m still thinking about you and the stupid shit you do
How do you assume, some how? That those moves you used before would work on someone this smooth?

You did your best and I appalled you
Some quit before they got ahead
But you in the finals now
I’m sure I’m gonna end up with one of you
Or just all alone
Either way it’s hunger games

This is a race but I’m done giving shortcuts away
Someone’s got to win one of these days
And it’s gonna prove exactly what I’ve been saying

Till then I promise to take care of myself and stay out of the game
No longer want to be distracted by something unsafe
I’ve had my fair share of very sick days
Now It’s overtime until I change my name!

Monster/ She Devil

Evil on my left, goodness on my right
I laugh, I cry, do you know who I am?
Probably not!

Say it, say my name!
I’ll smile or I’ll frown
Never letting you know
Whether you’re up or down

You think you had me?
Do you know for sure?
I love the game more than you
Secrets you’ll never guess

I’ve had crazier schemes
Bigger plans
undercover for years

Tears I can fake
Smiles made like cake
You don’t want a piece of me
Easy to display what I want you to see

Oh geez, joker indeed
The one that I like to please
Has always been close to me

Plan E, M, D!
Tasty treats just for me
Finger licking good
If you know what I mean!

Hell here I come,
I’ve had too much fun
Dialing my 6 for my ride home

When you find out it’ll be too late
Targets already set in place
Maybe you shouldn’t have
Bille Jeaned!!

X marks the spot
Bombs over Baghdad
Ready for war!
I’ve been waiting
Can’t wait to taste the blood spilled!!

Monsters don’t show their teeth
Not until they will strike
And I’m patient so patient
Until the very end!

Rain…..

Thank you, you came and I hated you
But you loved me
You loved me

You tried to tell me and I didn’t listen
Fighting to ignore you
You just kept coming back

I know I didn’t want to see
I thought you were blinding me
But you were washing away the darkness

Now I’m open and I’m free
I see the path in front of me
It’s clear skies and birds chirping

Singing happy songs as I skip along
Now when I look back and see the rain
I smile knowing how far I came

You wave from far away
Knowing all along that
I’d walk in the sun again!