I Lost

I don’t know who I am

Who I want to be

I’m feeling like I want to blame

Everyone else besides me

I feel so alone

I feel so ashamed

I let someone else cause me to be this way

and now I can’t forget your smile, your voice or your name

Why can’t someone save me from all this pain

I want to sleep and eat and live

Without you on my brain

Why did I try so hard

Just to lose this much

To feel so empty without your touch

It’s unfair to me

Because I thought I did everything right

I didn’t lie, I didn’t cheat

I stayed by your side every night

I supported you

and loved you dearly

So how come I’m the one being

Hurt by karma so severely

I have nothing

I feel broken

I just don’t understand

What did I do that made you

No longer want to be my man

If there was a game that we were playing

I’m sure that I lost at it

You got everything from me

And I didn’t get shit

No Game, Just Bloody Wars!

I just want to trust that I can trust

But even that’s asking too much

it feels like most people don’t wanna see you go up

And I hate more than anything this feeling of being stuck

I got two ways this can play out and the more the options way out

I can tell I’m gonna have to lose another part of myself

Where did y’all come from

Why you always wanna be near me

How come the more people I have around it’s harder for me to hear me

escape into myself, most people would be calling out for help

I’m learning that I’m better at being alone then hanging out with the crowd

So much pressure on becoming a great that they ask for ways to eat the cake

I’m not tryna feed nobody but myself, because the moment you start starving

Them same motherfuckers are no where to be found

Leave me be, if I’m gonna drown then let me drown

I bet you I could swim touch the bottom of the ocean push off and hit the highest high anyone has ever felt

I never doubt myself y’all need to trust me or go kill yourselves

I’m not playing games, I’m winning wars

I’m a Queen on the frontline someone should’ve warned you before!

The Fallen

What happened to the girl I used to know

After this break up

They forget to tell you how weak you will feel

Like I’m fighting for a chance to smile again

You lied to me

You told me we would stay lovers or friends

I look in the mirror and don’t know who I am

My confidence is gone

Like in the wind

I can see why some prefer the damaged thing

Because at least you’ll still have something

I’ve fallen and can’t get back up without my wings

Haunting

I have a haunting on my soul

Everytime I Close my eyes

The past I loved is there

Will I ever escape this dream

Or at least live it

Honey doesn’t matter if you left me

You’re still here

Stuck in a fragment of my imagination

I continue to lie to her

But she is stronger than me

My subconscious screams

Images of you two

I’m trapped

Haunted

By a dream

One I still believe

Save me

please

Sike, i like the way this feels baby

A piece of you I’ll forever keep

Haunted by you

Means

You’re haunted by me

Beautiful Mess

You’re my poison

I feel a bit of inspiration right before the pain sets in

Toxic

I’m crying blood and spitting up magic seeds

Dangerous

me loving you, you loving me

But we make history

Beautiful, messy, memories

I wish there was a way to make the picture

Fit the image of us three

The Devil pulling at our strings

Baby we make poetry

But we aren’t meant to be

No

We are meant to be

Yes

We ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ ͟ meant to be!

Free Falling

why do you expect me to hang here for you

I found the strength to reach up and cut the string

Now I’m free falling

So liberating

Free falling

Maybe what I need will catch me at the bottom

either way there’s no way you could make me stay

Choices

Would you rather be loved for the night

Or all eternity

This is the question you’ve brought to me

What would you choose if you were me

Maybe then I’d know what choice to make

so tell me which one is the one you will take

Say something

I mean what do you say

Once you choose it’ll be my turn

Then we can end the game